spontaneous trips at night.
an adventure in of itself.
made me realize how much i love it.
in the day time,
in the night time.
i fall in love, each time.
your dazzling lights that seem to go on forever,
accentuate the delicate architecture of the victorian.
tonight was so chill. went party hopping after work with my dsw girls. best part? eating at nations before ending the night. even though i have work in 6 hours but only have 4 hours to sleep…i don’t regret a thing.
i’m sitting here and listening to this melodic electronic amazing sound, and all the while
my mind is my heart and my soul is in front of my body.
my feet feel like they’re dancing and swaying with the beats
but really, they are completely still.
the world is still,
my body is still,
but my mind races.
but when i do,
i hope that i can get lost in your eyes.
i hope that you can make my stomach hurt from laughing.
i hope that i won’t have to hope anymore.
nothing to do but play and live.
and nothing can touch us.
as we held hands we looked up
so loud we felt the clouds take form
of our imagination.
2 sheets, some pillows, a long stick,
and some tape.
we become invisible.
the bad days don’t exist inside.
Has this happened before?
This subtle nudge i feel in my heart.
I have felt this before.
It’s the beginning of a beautiful mess
that i don’t want to pick up anymore.
There you will stay, a mess.
We’ll make angels in it and roll around in it.
If i’m lucky enough, i’ll let you in.
Into the mess that is my heart.
it shines on the top of our soon to be grown up skins.
beads of sweat drip down as we laugh to our youth.
stomach pains of abs contracting gives us a reason to take a breath,
yes, the grass is greener on the other side
but what does it take to get there?
We built a tall, tall tower
towards the sun, towards the sun
took some words and built a wall
we called it love, called it love
And somewhere in all the talking
the meaning faded out
Oh I wonder
when did it all stop making sense
I don’t understand
we were so sure, so innocent
oh but that was then
can we ever go back again
can we ever go back again
“The only rule is don’t be boring and dress cute wherever you go. Life is too short to blend in.”
i’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. i don’t know why.
i don’t know if you’ve ever missed me but i know i’ve missed you.
you were such a big part of my life and
i think that’s why i’ve been mad for such a long time.
but i’m not mad anymore. i’m not the same person you once knew.
i want to talk to you so badly,
i just don’t know what words i would say.
i’m really not sure if your ever going to see this but i miss you
it shines off of you.
it rolls off of the tip of your fingers
and enters my soul.
your words are profound,
your words give me hope
for a better me.
this heart, my heart.
it doesn’t care as much anymore.
crush it to pieces and nothing is left
for me to spare.
i want to yell and scream my words
but my words stop me.
a brick wall that grows in my esophagus
yields me to say what i mean.
and what i mean to say is not what my
heart wants to say.
always a tug of war with my mind and heart.
sometimes i just want to pack everything and go somewhere.
to do what i want and say what i want without having to hold it in
or hide it.
scattered paint on the wall,
mixed up and fast paced
on our wall.
it oddly reminds me of us now,
cause our lives have been turned upside down.
where did it go,
even now i look back and wonder.
what could have been us,
what could of been great,
it was all thrown away.
what seemed to be real,
what seemed to be fate,
it was all just fake.