Rosary Ring

i feel lost.
without it i feel lost.
carelessness..my enemy
has made me feel lost.

you might say i’m making
a big deal.
but to me, it is a big deal.
i feel naked without it.
my heart breaks at the thought
of where it might be.

it was like a security blanket.
i just never noticed.
it’s precious.
it was a part of me.

life has been turned upside down.
in my head, life is not the same.
fun loving adventures,
but the underlying feeling of the
disappearance of this thing…is
breaking me.

i like how all this dispair has been
brought on by a rosary ring. i love that
ring. i’m lost without that ring.
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the farewell was memorable
my heart was full
i will never forget that moment.

the bustle of people
conversations left and right
the world does not revolve around me
it never did, and it never will.
thank God.

baby talk is sexy
breakfast stops and coffee shots
in the fast lane. go go go.

he’s amazed with flying
it’s too cute
i can’t wait for that day.

alone never felt so good
and the sky is overflowing with gloom.

they’re everywhere
and my mind wanders
faces, all these faces are so different.

out of all the flights
i’ve never felt this way
never looked at things this way
never looked this way.

i can’t wait for the landing
its almost like a movie.

hope they smile
hope it’s love
hope it’s worth it.

but for now,
i sit and wait
and anticipate.

spin round and round.

i hate the way you look at me.
i hate it when our eyes meet.
it makes me nervous and cringe inside.

you don’t mean to.
i don’t mean to.
i’m glad it is one sided.
but your blind.

friends forever please.
nothing more.
i spin and my heart spins.
this is ridiculous.

feeling this thing..
is ridiculous.

but in the end,
i realize we are no more than
strangers.
and i can breathe.

first finished song.

the rain is falling on the rooftop
and your knockin’ on the wooden door
that you carved for me, for me

that lollipop thats in the cup
is the one that you bought for me, for me
from the happiest place on earth

this journal is breaking
i hope were not breaking
these flowers, these flowers are drying on us

your smile smiles down on me every night.
i don’t remember when you did that
oh i miss it so

this journal is breaking
i hope were not breaking
these flowers, these flowers are drying on us

your fingertips are on my skin
and i am starting to get chills
you kiss my brain oh so sweet
please don’t go

this journal is breaking
i hope were not breaking
these flowers, these flowers are drying on us

the rain is falling on the rooftop
and the thunder is starting to take over.