2011, so far you have been nothing but relaxing. While still enjoying my freedom from responsibilities that will soon be a reality come Monday morning, i’m running off the high from sibling bonding and well, the good stuff on earth. Above are some of my favorite photos that i have taken while on vacation in Los Angeles. These memories will be in my heart for a lifetime.
Leaving for San Francisco on Saturday with my brother, and i am super excited that he agreed to spend a couple of days with me up north!!!
i’m up early today.
and as i stare at my walls,
my clean white walls, which are complimented by my rothko poster, sarah spitler painting, & my pen pals photography,
i am happy.
my 21st birthday balloons are scattered on the floor,
and as i am listening to my all time favorite songs,
i am happy.
i don’t remember what heartbreak feels like.
i can get a taste of it if i see something heartbreaking.
…actually, i lied. i don’t think i’ve ever felt it.
i could say that i have felt it before but i’d be lying even more because
i don’t know if what i had was my heart actually breaking.
now i’m just rambling. goodnight.
Life gets so complicated sometimes and I hate the fact that it doesn’t have to be that way. I feel myself changing again and i don’t know how i feel about things. I feel like i’m stuck in this hallway not knowing which door to open. I’ve become emotionless, apathetic, somewhat stone cold. And it’s towards everything. I just want to be alone sometimes…and it’s becoming more frequent.
On the lighter side of things, i’m glad that i barely have any classes this week. I’m going hiking with my friend Esther on Wednesday morning and i’m uber excited to breathe in the morning fresh air and be with nature. I’m also excited to be reunited with my friend Sarah (She Will Be Loved, check her out!) on Thursday. So much catching up to do and lots of yummy food to eat! =)
I need a vacation. I’m actually excited to go back home for Spring Break…basking in the sunlight with a good book sounds pretty delightful to me right now.
How lovely would it be to come across a white rabbit wearing a waistcoat.
To finally know that what is impossible is actually quite possible.
And to find out who you are.
How lovely would it be to sail away on the ocean? To float away in the middle of nowhere, dancing with the currents under you. And the horizon is a vast painting forming right in front of your eyes. The sun rays, the blankets of clouds, the glistening ocean waters, and the crisp blue sky.
As you focus on it a little longer, you start to imagine falling over the edge of the earth. Falling down, down. Down until the other end catches you, letting you to sail away into nothingness again.
Oh how the waves dance perfectly with the music in my ears.
I often wonder what the meaning of life is.
I’m sure everyone thinks of this at least once in their lifetime.
And i’m thinking about it now.
I’ve been thinking about it for a while.
Here I am in the dark. The light trickles above my head, streaming down, down.
Coupled with the sweet sounds of notes intended to make us feel,
and as a cold breeze dances towards my toes I
I am frozen in this moment.
Time, who needs time? When we can stay like this…
even the clouds have frozen over.
Stuck in the airy shapes they formed for human pleasure.