Life at the moment

Life gets so complicated sometimes and I hate the fact that it doesn’t have to be that way. I feel myself changing again and i don’t know how i feel about things. I feel like i’m stuck in this hallway not knowing which door to open. I’ve become emotionless, apathetic, somewhat stone cold. And it’s towards everything. I just want to be alone sometimes…and it’s becoming more frequent.

On the lighter side of things, i’m glad that i barely have any classes this week. I’m going hiking with my friend Esther on Wednesday morning and i’m uber excited to breathe in the morning fresh air and be with nature. I’m also excited to be reunited with my friend Sarah (She Will Be Loved, check her out!) on Thursday. So much catching up to do and lots of yummy food to eat! =)

I need a vacation. I’m actually excited to go back home for Spring Break…basking in the sunlight with a good book sounds pretty delightful to me right now.

Fuck it.

it’s true, i let it get to me. i was sad ever since i read those words, but you know what? i’m ok now. yes i have changed, who doesn’t? i’m not the same girl i was and i’m sure 5 years from now i won’t be the same girl i am now. i’m sick of going back to the past. i’m ready for the future.

thanks for letting me see that i’m blessed for the people i have in my life.

New Year

i’m looking forward to this new year. mostly because i know where i belong and i have found my home. my heart.

i’m learning to leave the past behind and i’m glad to think of the future. i’m trying deeply to change because there are some parts of me i dislike.

i can’t help but smile though. new events are in store and i’m excited for my classes, old friends and making new ones, but most of all i’m excited for love.

happy 2010 =)

Changes

it’s funny how you look back into your past and realize how much you’ve changed.

little by little things shift,

it moves and follows you everywhere.

like a shadow that is slowly being consumed by your personality.

it’s scary but lovely at the same time.

to know that you have the power to reinvent yourself.

fall once, twice, three times…stay strong.