I told myself that this time i will do things differently.
This time, i will not fall so easily.
I’m not falling…but i want to.
Just thinking about it i know it’s a bad thing for me.
Knowing that i will hurt, i will cry, i will regret it.
but i want it.
If i’m ever close to that one thing,
I stop and analyze my heart.
I force to stop the feelings that will ruin me.