i could be stronger.
i could be smarter..i should be.
i could be better at it then anyone else.
i could, i could, i could.
but my heart is not in it at the moment.
is something lurking deep inside my conscious?
is there something preventing me from doing my job?
some things i worry about too much.
at this moment. 12:37am…
i should be dreaming…
or digging myself into articles & paintings.
but all i seem to want to do is listen to trance & jazz
and to write.
i want to create something unusual…but with these
hands..i don’t know.
Lord give me strength.