We Own The Sky

Love Thing.

loveistoartas — Sun, 13 Dec 2009 07:27:55 +0000

I don’t know how i feel about this…this whole love thing. I’ve never been in love.

And when i see it now in movies and in real life, i think to myself and suddenly i feel

…foreign.

It’s a strange feeling and i can’t see myself ever experiencing it.

I’m not being sad or anything. I have just come to realization of what my life has become.

I’m sure this thought and feeling will subside in due time, but for now

I can’t help but feel this odd separation between me and love.

Because me and love don’t exist.

yet.

Badly

loveistoartas — Wed, 09 Dec 2009 03:43:59 +0000

just once i’d love for my heart to let my mind know how i feel.

all this confusing bullshit is just that. bullshit.

i want to scream out that i’ve let my guard down,

but in reality, my wall has turned into a rock.

i want so badly to just feel something.

something real and something that i’m sure of.

when i think of you, i’m not sure.

should have, could have, would have.

loveistoartas — Mon, 07 Dec 2009 20:34:37 +0000

i should have kissed you. the moment was so perfect.

i could have kissed you. but i hesitated.

i would have kissed you. but we’re not good together.

I’m ready to take the leap, but no one is giving me the chance.

loveistoartas — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 11:05:06 +0000

loveistoartas — Fri, 04 Dec 2009 07:43:18 +0000

a picture is a thousand words,

each word has a meaning,

every meaning triggers a feeling,

and feeling is living.

breakdowns…

loveistoartas — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 07:48:21 +0000

they are relieved by uppers for a short while.

so you do it over and over again.

Changes

loveistoartas — Wed, 02 Dec 2009 07:45:08 +0000

it’s funny how you look back into your past and realize how much you’ve changed.

little by little things shift,

it moves and follows you everywhere.

like a shadow that is slowly being consumed by your personality.

it’s scary but lovely at the same time.

to know that you have the power to reinvent yourself.

fall once, twice, three times…stay strong.

Holiday

loveistoartas — Fri, 20 Nov 2009 22:44:00 +0000

i’ve never really been the type of person to go crazy for the holiday season

but for some odd reason, i’m really excited this year.

even though there is no one special to cuddle with

it doesn’t matter cause my friends and family are WAY better.

i think i’m happier this year cause i’ve changed.

it’s like i see life in a new light.

it’s pretty amazing.

it took 20 years, but i’m finally here.

loveistoartas — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 21:16:08 +0000

after listening to all the people close to me, i think i’m finally going to listen. i’ve felt this way before, but i think this time it’s different. i’m beginning to believe instead of nodding and replying ” i know, i know.” i think it’s time for me to take my own advice and take others as well. i am truly beginning to love myself for the first time in 20 years, and it feels amazing.

break out.

loveistoartas — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 21:27:33 +0000

i’m starting to slowly break out of my shell. i’ve met so many great new people within the last few months and i’m so thankful for them. they made me realize how fun life can be and how great i can be. i think it’s time i embrace my whole self and believe in myself rather than set my feelings aside in a dusty corner. i hope this “new” me will last because i’m tired of waiting for things to happen…when i know i can make them happen.