i’m starting to slowly break out of my shell. i’ve met so many great new people within the last few months and i’m so thankful for them. they made me realize how fun life can be and how great i can be. i think it’s time i embrace my whole self and believe in myself rather than set my feelings aside in a dusty corner. i hope this “new” me will last because i’m tired of waiting for things to happen…when i know i can make them happen.

spontaneous trips at night.

an adventure in of itself.

made me realize how much i love it.

in the day time,

in the night time.

i fall in love, each time.

your dazzling lights that seem to go on forever,

accentuate the delicate architecture of the victorian.

tonight was so chill. went party hopping after work with my dsw girls. best part? eating at nations before ending the night. even though i have work in 6 hours but only have 4 hours to sleep…i don’t regret a thing.

i’m sitting here and listening to this melodic electronic amazing sound, and all the while

my mind is my heart and my soul is in front of my body.

my feet feel like they’re dancing and swaying with the beats

but really, they are completely still.

the world is still,

my body is still,

but my mind races.

but when i do,

i hope that i can get lost in your eyes.

i hope that you can make my stomach hurt from laughing.

i hope that i won’t have to hope anymore.

early cartoons,

nothing to do but play and live.

so carefree,

and nothing can touch us.

as we held hands we looked up

and screamed.

so loud we felt the clouds take form

of our imagination.

2 sheets, some pillows, a long stick,

and some tape.

we become invisible.

the bad days don’t exist inside.

Has this happened before?

This subtle nudge i feel in my heart.

I have felt this before.

It’s the beginning of a beautiful mess

that i don’t want to pick up anymore.

There you will stay, a mess.

We’ll make angels in it and roll around in it.

If i’m lucky enough, i’ll let you in.

Into the mess that is my heart.

the sun,

it shines on the top of our soon to be grown up skins.

beads of sweat drip down as we laugh to our youth.

stomach pains of abs contracting gives us a reason to take a breath,

and continue.

yes, the grass is greener on the other side

but what does it take to get there?

We built a tall, tall tower
towards the sun, towards the sun
took some words and built a wall
we called it love, called it love

And somewhere in all the talking
the meaning faded out

Oh I wonder
when did it all stop making sense
I don’t understand
I remember
we were so sure, so innocent
oh but that was then
can we ever go back again
can we ever go back again

“The only rule is don’t be boring and dress cute wherever you go. Life is too short to blend in.”

i’ve been thinking about you a lot lately. i don’t know why.

i don’t know if you’ve ever missed me but i know i’ve missed you.

you were such a big part of my life and

i think that’s why i’ve been mad for such a long time.

but i’m not mad anymore. i’m not the same person you once knew.

i want to talk to you so badly,

i just don’t know what words i would say.

i’m really not sure if your ever going to see this but i miss you

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