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Quiet winds outside my window
it whispers a scream of yearning.
Hear the curls and twists of an organic truth,
the pain of pleasure it is.

Summer Read

1. The Bell Jar
2.  My Sister’s Keeper
3. The Brief Wondrous Life of Oscar Wao
4.  Seven days in the Art World
5.  The Historian (i will finish it this time..i hope)
6.  The Fountainhead
7.  The Great Gatsby (for the second time)
8.  Eat, Pray, Love
9.  The Time Traveler’s Wife
this book list will keep me busy.
any suggestions for great [...]

Doubt.

This is probably my hormones talking or the movies and shows i keep watching but i don’t think i’ll ever be worthy enough for that. I love seeing old people in love walking hand in hand because you know that love is true, and its forever. For it to last that long is like a [...]

Crazy Spicy Chicken

if you may not know, i also love to cook. and somehow i just come up with things. so i thought i’d actually write something down and get it right the second time.
What you’ll need:
2 tablespoons of chili paste
1 tablespoon of A1 steak sauce
2 teaspoons of garlic
1 tablespoon of vinegar
add black pepper and salt to [...]

a little Tim Burton in my head.

the window is open and a breeze comes my way.
my red curtains have a life of their own,
like blood on my walls they brighten my day.
the cellophane thats on the floor is crackling a ling.
i open my eyes and what do i see? 
nothing is there for me, nothing enchanting i see,
nothing just nothing. oh my. 
 
eerie [...]

Friends.

To sum it all up, my friends are amazing.
While at my friends house for our usual gathering they decided to read aloud a part from Eclipse. It’s hilarious and i love them for it.

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Lost and Obsessed.

Like the phases of fashion i am once again lost and yearning to change.
i don’t reach for the high waisted skirts any longer. still in my heart but wanting more.
Lately i’ve been obsessed with:
1. Britney Spears’ new album, Circus.
2. Fantasy (mainly cotton clouds)
 Sip My Ocean
3. Jewelry (chunky bracelets, bow necklaces, bangles, & rings)
4. The Science of [...]

Russians.

Your Personal Star

Your Personal Moon
 
I want my own moon & star.
the russians are amazing.

scream.

the churning feeling at the pit of my stomach is telling me to get out of there.
sucked in and no way to get out without firmly stating “i don’t want to be here.”
i’m not the same girl i was before. 
i’m not in tune with that part of my life 
and i don’t plan on being in [...]

summer obsession.

the 14 year old girl inside of me has let loose.
it’s kind of hard to be all sophisticated chic when all i can
think about or talk about is the Jonas Brothers. lame..i know. 
but my girlfriends and i are just obsessed. 

and of course…i’m the pedophile while my friend gets the legal boy. 
 
[unfortunately, i think this is the [...]

Anastasia

Dreams
this dream i’m having is stirring,
yearning to tell me to save me.
The wind is blowing and the thunder
is growing.
Can you tell me the way so i can go
my own way.

I feel Nothing.

Fairytales and storybooks.
Musicals and playbooks.
why can’t life be happy endings and tragic like some of these.
Stargazing on rooftops.
lie down and look at the world.
Galaxies of wonder and curiosity.
Listen closely and carefully.
for you might miss the magic.
This feeling deep inside is…
unexplainable. eerie.
Never consistent.
Lost the moment.
Just Blank.

blackout.

fingers frozen
sitting in the dark
hear the strong winds
a faint sound of music
and we’re free.
power is gone
sense of sound is heightened
magic forms from the simplest of sounds.
wait.
just wait.
it’s still dark and cold.
the shadow of branches form
how scary it must be.
but it’s no monster.
no need to hide my love
it’s only a blackout.

stranger.

i’ve always wanted…
a complete stranger to be
my pen pal…well…email pal?
i’ve wanted one ever since i had a computer…
or should i say, ever since the first day i watched
you’ve got mail. (wonderful movie btw.)
to talk about nothing, but talk about everything,
to a complete stranger who gets you..
without even knowing you. doesn’t know
your face, but know’s everything [...]