Paulie Bleeker

 
probably the best inside joke ever.
my butterflies are starting to grow.
can i be any more obvious??? 
i must say…i’m practically throwing myself at you.

Oh Yann…

i want to fly through the soul in which you call your own.
what goes on in that mind of yours? i may never know.
the way you move makes me want to move with you in unison.
 
like a bird, you move your limbs so gracefully, 
i can’t even imagine anything more beautiful.
up and down, a little flutter [...]

WOW

my heart needs to make up its fucking mind.
and it doesn’t help that you’re in my dreams every night…literally.
EVERY NIGHT.

Happy.

It’s like i opened a big window and saw my life through it. I’ve come to realize that i am happy with my choices. Let’s just say my love life is in idle. I’m happy with just going to work, school, and being with friends. Boys just complicate things. If it happens, it will happen. [...]

Do i really???

i love the nights when my roommates and i get together and just talk. 
it’s real talk. whether it’s about guys, views on life, morals…we talk about anything.
which made me realize, on the topic of guys, do i really like him??
 
that is the question on my mind right now.
what is it about him that i like? [...]

Doubt.

This is probably my hormones talking or the movies and shows i keep watching but i don’t think i’ll ever be worthy enough for that. I love seeing old people in love walking hand in hand because you know that love is true, and its forever. For it to last that long is like a [...]

So Far..

i need something inspirational to happen.
i need something exciting to happen. 
so exciting that i won’t be able to contain myself.
i need…

I wonder.

is he worth chasing after?
is he worth opening that door that has never been opened?
 
 
the butterflies in the pit of my stomach say he is.

True.

I hope this never changes. you and me.
anything i say, anything i do, it doesn’t matter. 
because you are true.
 
Thinking of when it will all be over scares me. 
but i’m hoping that thought never comes true
because it might just kill me.
 
There by day, there by night.
always a smile on your face, makes me smile.
 
I hope you [...]

Falling.

I told myself that this time i will do things differently.
This time, i will not fall so easily.
I’m not falling…but i want to. 
 
Just thinking about it i know it’s a bad thing for me.
Especially now. 
Knowing that i will hurt, i will cry, i will regret it.
but i want it.
 
It’s sad.
If i’m ever close to that [...]