i miss..

A pain.
so sharp to the heart.
i thought i left this behind.
no.
it’s still lingers..deep.
tears fall,
and my heart aches with a pain i’ve never felt before.
the feeling
of i miss you.
i break for a while.
but in the end,
i know.
i’m alive.

my tummy.

Tossing and turning. That is how you will find me every night..on occasion there are those days where i’m too tired to bother about life and find myself in dreamland in 2 seconds.
Tonight is no different then any other night this week. My mind is full of..well..it’s full. I can’t seem to let go no [...]

Harry Connick Jr. on repeat.

Instruments fill the room
his voice; soothing and deep
like a smooth velvet pillow.
Swing, slow, etc.
i presume you can dance to any of these
enchanting melodies.
Every day
Each moment
Every smile you make
is heaven.
that is what i would say to…a dream.
The dream of someone..as she said.

Anastasia

Dreams
this dream i’m having is stirring,
yearning to tell me to save me.
The wind is blowing and the thunder
is growing.
Can you tell me the way so i can go
my own way.

Pipeline.

Blank. Empty.
it’s white with lines.
my heart is all over it.
in whispers and words.
I’m all over it.
Not blank anymore.
let’s hope it stays.
music; it helps.
It inspires.
It hurts.
It makes us smile.
It’s something new.
Quiet and dark in this room.
hear the heartbeat.
it’s love. it is love.
I live on pipeline dreams.
in this moment.
in this state.
i’m free.
i’m content.
i’m Happy.

I feel Nothing.

Fairytales and storybooks.
Musicals and playbooks.
why can’t life be happy endings and tragic like some of these.
Stargazing on rooftops.
lie down and look at the world.
Galaxies of wonder and curiosity.
Listen closely and carefully.
for you might miss the magic.
This feeling deep inside is…
unexplainable. eerie.
Never consistent.
Lost the moment.
Just Blank.

2008

The ball drops.
Fireworks.
Kisses & Hugs.
It’s the New Year.
No.
No resolutions.
Tempting, but i just want happiness.
First captured moment of a slow dance.
Remarkable. Beautiful. Happy.
Endless movies with the best of friends.
A new friend from Liverpool.
S.S. time.
Family moments.
Written moments.
Relax. Chill.
But to go back…
Now that is something i can’t wait for.
So long 2007…2008 is a good year.

insomnia tragedy.

insomnia has taken over me this new years day.
one tragedy has been on my mind.
to lose the one you look up to at the ripe age of 18.
18.
it’s the age you become a man/woman.
the age where you go and start fresh in college.
the age your thrown out into the real world.
18.
it will never be the [...]